Stuck at home.

Woke up around 10 earlier this morning, but I was too lazy to get up.. so I stayed in bed, starin at the ceilin.. just thinkin to myself.. I decided to get out of bed around 11.. brushed my teeth then washed my face.. sat infront of the computer afterwards and watched episode 16 of Fate Stay Night since I noticed that the download was already done. It was pretty much another boring and uneventful day for me.. although I actually did the laundry this time and cleaned up a bit o_O took my mind off some stuff.

Leah called around 3, I was really grateful since I was so damn bored x_x and it gave me a break from doing the laundry :D we talked about random stuff for a bit, think it was 30mins or so, she didn't stay on the phone long since her mom might get mad at her or somethin, went back to doing the laundry afterwards. I played DotA with bur, mso and ron around 7, that's pretty much it.. am still bored, I need to sleep early tonight so I can wake up around 5 am tomorrow.. still need to go to school for a meeting.

Oh yeah, I created an account in multiply yesterday.. it doesn't have much content though.. just check it out if you want to. Just click -> here <- to get there.

Just another day.

The construction that's taking place just outside our house is really annoying, I hate the banging noise that they're producing.. it really disturbs my sleep and the peace around here -_-; Blah.

Anyway, I went to school yesterday to attend a meeting for our org, asked MSo to fetch me from my place, then we went to Leah's place next.. after that it was Bur.. it was a bit traffic though, that's why we were uhh... 30mins late for the meeting o_x We discussed about our plans and activities for the next school year, then after that, we thought of what we were going to do for the FoP (Frosh Orientation Program) the freshmen would be oriented about uhh.. I dunno.. stuff, and I think be introduced to the different organizations at school. I don't really know, I wasn't able to attend the orientation program before because I was at China with my sister, on a study tour ~_~; Though we're having a bit of um.. problem with the preparations, er.. actually I don't know if it's really a problem, but we're gonna rush things since the FoP is going to be on May 15.. that's AFTER our teambuilding at Zambales! @_@; We'll be at Zambales for our teambuilding on May 12 til 14, haha ~_~; Oh! my position was also changed, I was supposed to be the HR Committee Head for our org, but due to a certain umm.. situation, I became the Outreach Committee Head o_O;;; One of our Outreach committee heads were required to go to the PLANS thingy (a teambuilding for all organizations) but they couldn't go, eh, if you were required to go to that and you couldn't go, you'd be stripped of your position.. so they changed my position so I'd be the one to go instead ^^;; It's next saturday, April 29 til May 1.. 3 days 2 nights at Angels' Hills, Tagaytay... and it's free! haha, I just hope I get to do things right, I don't exactly know what the Outreach comm. head is supposed to do o_O Oh well, I'll just ask Abi about it.. lol.

The meeting ended around 3pm, then we (Bur, MSo, Ron, Leah, me and another officer, Harbin.) played dota! nyahaha :D I wasn't able to play the other day.. so nyeh XD

Damn, I really miss Linh, even though it's only been a week since she left for Germany ;~; Ah well, just a few more weeks before she comes back, and our little wacky group will be complete yet again XD



This is the cup of the Mocha Frap that she treated me last month when we met up at Starbucks, and I'm really reminded of her when I see it since she's the only one that calls me that, haha. Can't wait 'til she comes back. ^^

Life's a Bitch.

This post was written out of rage, and if you wouldn't want to read any rants and crap.. you'd better close that browser of yours right now. But if you still want to continue reading, suit yourself. You've been warned.


Sometimes I really wonder why I even try. I'm trying to change myself, trying to be more responsible just so I can atleast prove something to my dad. But why the hell do I even bother? Nothing changes, I still can't do anything right! My dad would still continue saying all that shit to me, saying that I'm a worthless and irresponsible daughter, that I should be a role model for my younger siblings rather than doing crap and wasting my time infront of the pc, playing games and chatting with people. WHY MUST HE BE SO NARROW MINDED?! Sure, I know I'm stupid.. but I'm not THAT stupid to talk to random strangers over the net! The people I'm talking to right now are the people that have atleast earned my trust. Fuck it. It's not my fault if I need FRIENDS, if I need people to talk to and relate with! I'm so SICK and TIRED of being alone! If they won't let me go out of the house with my friends then ATLEAST let me have a past time and do something rather than rot here at home doing nothing! It still is my life, I don't care if they were the ones who are responsible for me being alive today.. I'd rather choose to have died 17 years ago in that hospital room than have this pathetic life that I can't even have a say in!

Relieved.

I just got home 30 minutes ago, the course cards were distributed earlier today, and I can really say that I'm relieved that I passed the subject that I was really afraid of failing (JOSERIZ - Subject that studies Jose Rizal's life, the Philippine's national hero) eventhough I only got a 1 for it, and 1 is the lowest passing grade @_@; gah, so much for my plan of trying to get into the dean's list again for this term.. oh well, I just hope my parents won't get mad >_<; I really hate being pressured into doing something I'm not enjoying. Got a 3.5 for my Reconse subj, 3 for Economy and Petriid, 2.5 for Gepsych, Oralcom and Incosys. *sigh* I'm just really glad that I passed Joseriz, you have no idea how close I came to a nervous breakdown worrying over that subject, since I pretty much failed almost ALL the quizzes @_@

Anyhoo~ with that done, my summer vacation can officially start, but then again, that is there to do here?! >_< I pretty much quit playing online games (since I found it a total waste of time now) and I don't think I can go out with my friends that much, besides... Linh's in Germany and she's staying there for a month (I got an offine message from her on YM saying that she got there safely, which is good), Bur's gonna leave for China after tomorrow, he's staying there for 2 weeks.. and according to Leah, she's going to the "Hell house" on Monday and I have no idea how long she's gonna stay there, then she has this family thing for the whole month of May, and obviously Francis has work. Hn, I need something productive to do for this summer o_O;

I want to gain weight, then swim (for exercise - I need something to do to build up my stamina @_@;) but, I don't exactly know where I can swim and who I'm gonna go with.. soooo... I've really no idea if that'll work out for me =/ I don't even know when Masi's plannin on teaching me how to play the guitar O_o; Ah well, I just hope I find a productive past time @_@;

As for now, I know I'm really, really tired.

P.S. I just noticed, this is like.. the first post that I made (that's actually long and made sense, mind you) after what happened after March 20th, haha, things are kinda going back to normal.. so yeah! :D

Daily Ramblings.

Been a while since I last posted an entry here o_O The last entry I was supposed to post here didn't get saved, bummer. -_-

It's so early in the mornin and I'm here at school waiting for the prof to arrive.. we have an exam in a few minutes, and I'm glad that this is the last one. But then again, I'm still going to come back here tomorrow.. to get my course cards <_< My summer vacation can officially start after tomorrow XD I just hope it won't be boring.. Linh's flight to Germany will be later in the afternoon.. just hope she's gonna have a safe flight :3

Anyway, prof's here.. gotta end this entry of mine now XP