Keeping it all inside.

For the past years I've done this, I've kept everything inside, I've kept everything to myself.. sure there'd be certain times when I'd be able to talk to one of friends and spill the beans, but the pain only goes away during that certain period, and often everything comes back the next time I feel down. During the times I feel like crying, my chest feels heavy and it seems like it's gonna burst any second then, from all the things I've kept inside.

Had a bit of bad news lately, from friends and aquiantances, and the situation here at home doesn't really help at all, been trying to play or surf the net more often just to get my mind off reality, even for just a while.. hmm.. maybe "a bit" was an understatement o_O I just wonder when it's all going to end.

What a way to start the new year, eh?