Life, and all the crap in between.

It's really depressing when bad things happen to you consecutively then you suddenly feel so down or angry, and you need someone to talk to.. you pick up your phone and see loads of names and numbers, you browse through it and suddenly realize there's no one there you can talk to about how your feeling, about how angry or down you are.

Then in the end, you suddenly realize that you're all alone again, there's no one around for you.. then you keep all these bad feelings inside of you like you always had for the past.. what.. 3-4 years? You tried reading a portion of a novel you're finishing to distract your mind.. but the feeling won't go away, it's still there.. and your chest feels heavy.

You need to sleep, right now. It's almost midnight and you need to wake up early tomorrow morning because you have a trip with your family to a mountain or something.. but you can't because of all these thoughts keep haunting your mind, and the bad feelings are kept inside your heart, so many bad feelings that you feel that your heart is going to explode right then and there.

You've cried your heart out the past year, on this same night.. because you're reminded of some guy and a bad "relationship" between the two of you that you've hoped to still have a chance, but didn't.. because you were already out of the picture, he was moving on.. and you weren't. Hearts broken, feelings hurt.. and you end up crying because of regret.

Right now, there's no one there for you, when you need someone the most.

Right now I just want to cry.