Life, and all the crap in between.

It's really depressing when bad things happen to you consecutively then you suddenly feel so down or angry, and you need someone to talk to.. you pick up your phone and see loads of names and numbers, you browse through it and suddenly realize there's no one there you can talk to about how your feeling, about how angry or down you are.

Then in the end, you suddenly realize that you're all alone again, there's no one around for you.. then you keep all these bad feelings inside of you like you always had for the past.. what.. 3-4 years? You tried reading a portion of a novel you're finishing to distract your mind.. but the feeling won't go away, it's still there.. and your chest feels heavy.

You need to sleep, right now. It's almost midnight and you need to wake up early tomorrow morning because you have a trip with your family to a mountain or something.. but you can't because of all these thoughts keep haunting your mind, and the bad feelings are kept inside your heart, so many bad feelings that you feel that your heart is going to explode right then and there.

You've cried your heart out the past year, on this same night.. because you're reminded of some guy and a bad "relationship" between the two of you that you've hoped to still have a chance, but didn't.. because you were already out of the picture, he was moving on.. and you weren't. Hearts broken, feelings hurt.. and you end up crying because of regret.

Right now, there's no one there for you, when you need someone the most.

Right now I just want to cry.

I can't believe it!

A girl (probably around my age or 2-3 years older) just lost her cellphone almost infront of me earlier today, when I was about to cross the street towards the LRT station en route to Monumento.

There was alot of people walking here and there since it was dismissal (for most students), then I saw this girl with her big blue backpack.. and noticed that a guy, wearing a red and white cap, was holding onto the front pocket. At first I thought that she probably knew the guy, but when I looked closer I noticed that the front pocket's zipper was open.. and the guy's hand was inside and then when he took out his hand, I saw a cellphone.. I think the girl noticed that something or someone was touching her bag, she turned around and the guy quickly hid the phone behind him, and when the girl checked her bag, the guy quickly ran away.. I didn't know what happened after that because I crossed the street, though I did see the guy run past me.

It was really freaky to witness that, and at the same time frustrating.. and when I went up the LRT station and was already waiting for the train, I can't help myself but keep thinking what would happen if I noticed sooner.. and helped the girl?

zomg

My brother just graduated from college yesterday, it's still hard to believe o_O

He's... he's... officially... unemployed O_O

Random Rant >_<;;

I'm really pissed of at my life right now

Oh how I wish that I'm already a graduating student in college so I can get a job and move the hell out of this place -_____-;

Shadow Circle enters hibernation.

When I first heard of the news, it really surprised me.. I never thought that Shadow Circle would ever enter guild hibernation o_O; ah well, every one deserves a break ^.^

But I wonder.. what the hell will I do in RO now o_o after staying in 1 guild for almost 2 years (methinks) I don't know if I could even join another guild, haha.

Ah well, I guess I'll just focus on my studies and not bother sieging anymore. =/